HOW THE ALIAS, LO MAR, WAS BORN!
The Story Behind the Alias Lo Mar & the Name Lo Mar’s Art BY LO METOYER!
Unnecessary Disclaimer: As I type, I like to document the date and time that I start and stop typing (plus anywhere in-between) because I lalalalove synchronicities & many numbers (& things) are synchronistic to me. So yeah…I just decided to leave that rawness in this post. Boom.
3/9/22 11:04am Sit back and enjoy this wild (not really wild haha) ride as I take you on an adventure back in time…haha such a great intro huh? Ok let’s get on with it.
Soooo for those who are unaware, Lo Mar’s Art by Lo Metoyer goes by Lo Mar’s Art for short & Lo Mar is the alias for Lo Metoyer. But as a whole, Lo Mar’s Art features creations, & just pure awesomeness created by Lo Mar a.k.a. Lo Metoyer. So yeah, hi! That’s me…the one who is typing this right now. Feel free to just call me Lo though (…nice rhyme action right there) 3/9/22 12:34pm.
I’ll break it down in detail later in this lovely post, but to start let’s start with a brief, yet mightily current and official description of Lo Mar, Lo Metoyer, and Lo Mar’s Art…
To know Lo Mar’s Art is to know Lo Mar; for Lo Mar’s Art is an external expression 3/9/22 11:11am of Lo Mar’s internal garden & expansion, but their infinite supply of nutrients & wonder are only provided through the alignment and willingness of Lo Metoyer in each present moment.
Lo Mar is the collective essence of Lo Metoyer.
Lo Metoyer is Lo Mar, but Lo Mar is not Lo Metoyer. 11:22am
To be blunt, Lo Mar’s Art is basically a public documentation of what I have come to create, know, and experience on my initial journey to genuine self-love and now continued journey of self-discovery. I share what I am led to share when I am led to share it. Some things date back before I committed to self-love, some things I no longer resonate with, and…
NATURE PAUSE! A Bald Eagle is soaring beautifully outside my window as the fluffy white clouds and peeks of clear blue sky enhance the beauty of its being to shine and be seen oh so clearly in this moment. Gosh I love love love when nature comes to surprise and delight me especially when I am writing…it makes my heart feel so warm with love and appreciation…it’s incredible how high eagles can fly too…oh!! I have also been watching a live stream…wowwww and the eagle outside my window just descended head first at such an incredibly fast speed toward the lake…no hesitation…pure confidence and trust in it’s ability and intuition 3/9/22 11:44am OH!!! That's right…I have been watching this live stream video of an eagle nest in D.C. for the past few weeks and have been able to watch the two baby eagles beautifully grow and witness the intelligence, love, and care of the eagle parents and youngsters…truly incredible. Anyway, I got way off topic and will be writing more about my lalalalove for eagles in other Thought Posts..so stay tuneddddddddd! 3/9/22 11:49am
Ok now where were we? Haha that was such a huge digression, but oh well that’s just how some…well many hah of my thought posts will go, which is exactly what happens when I am writing solely for self in my journals…I always throw in some of the real time nature surprises I am presented with haha ok for real for real let’s get back to it.
Ok NOW TIME FOR THE STORY! BUCKLE UP! Hah jk that was an exaggeration...just hyping the story up a wee bit…it deserves love and cheers too! Haha I am so funny…I crack myself up all the time (even though I tend to be the only one laughing butttt 96% of the others who are hearing my divine comedy do crack at least a slight half smirk at my oddball comedic self hah ok so for real here we go…
IT ALL STARTED WITH THE BIRTH OF THE ALIAS LO MAR IN 2018:
***SUPER SIDE NOTE: The original text below was written on 10/01/2021 at 2:45pm. But I’m going to throw it in this 2022 goodness and just clean it up.
Funny story. Actually, not really…but in spring of 2018, I was encouraged by my mama & an artist mentor to submit artwork for his gallery’s annual art exhibit; which was certainly intriguing since at that point I had zero exhibits under my belt. Andddd the last (and first) time I painted on a canvas was back in 2017 when my dear ol “auntie” gave me the green light to have some of her scrumptious bubbly drink and paint over a canvas that came in a huge frame she bought…AND WOWZA thinking back on that experience is always such a joy and elicits such wonderful feelings of fun, exuberance, and pride within me. Yeee! I cherish that memory.
ANYWAY, I digress. So I agreed to give the exhibit a chance and as I was painting my second and third pieces ever (Radiating Joy & Shining In the Dark), I realized that I would have to provide my name (duh) and it would be displayed & announced publicly and blah blah blah thoughts of fear about sharing my expressions in a public environment just wasn't vibin’ with me at the time…AT ALL. But then at the perfect moment, I received the splendid idea to use an art alias! HA!
Self-Reflective Pause:
Let’s pause for a moment to acknowledge the love I feel for who I was and who I am now...wow have I changed so much since then…wow…sheesh…I have come so far and am now at this beautiful genuine unconditionally self-loving place and I am so proud of myself and that I willingly walked toward my confident and eternal evolution rather than trying to run in place resisting my true essence. I digress, yet again, haha I guess it’s just another one of those beautiful moments!
Sooooo back to the story, not long after the excitement of the alias idea and brainstorming, the name, Lo Mar, was born!!!! Lo representing first name and Mar representing last name. I loved that it was a mesh of my real name, but also offered a secure and beautiful level of privacy and mystery, especially since stereotypically the name could be perceived as either female or male…oooooooooo so mysterious haha. Plus, it was the perfect way for me to avoid any potential rejection hahah ohhhh those insecure (but so very important) days that I love but I do not miss.
THEN THE DECISION TO OPEN A LEGIT BUSINESS WAS INITIATED…
Anyway, at this point on my journey, I was only interested in selling my paintings with an alias that could not identify me in any way possible (unless those who knew my real identity exposed me haha which happened way more than I expected...all good though…all love haah :D) sooo THE ALIAS, LO MAR, and plan to only sell paintings in a gallery WAS A SUCCESS FOR A WEE BIT OF TIME until I started skipping, running, crawling, leaping, log rolling, dancing, and galloping down the path to genuine self-love and conscious self-discovery…sheesh I even did the thing I said I would never do by deciding to open Lo Mar’s Art WHICH WAS THE BIRTH OF THE BUSINESS NAME LO MAR’S ART (still without the addition of “by Lo Metoyer”) and sell my creations.
***ANOTHER SIDE NOTE that is something I want to share for detail & pizzazz: For yearssss, I was creating goodness for others as free & surprise gifts and for yearssssss people were telling me to sell my creations…offering to pay me for my creations and I SAID FOR YEARSSSS…”NO, NO, NO, NO, NO BECAUSE WHEN MONEY IS ADDED INTO THE MIX I WOULD DISTORT THE GENUINE WONDERFUL NATURE OF IT.” Hahah gosh…that was a hard one for me to let go of, but now I know smarter & released those false beliefs because if someone wants to pay for something that is their decision…and the thing they pay for is already created by the time they pay for it (at least for many things) soooooo…yeah that's a wholeeee different tangent that I am looking forward to writing and sharing with y’all at a later time.
So doopididoo, I had accepted the opening of Lo Mar’s Art while feeling false security from the level of mystery I was still holding onto with only using my alias. Lo Mar. And for a while, it felt as if with each passing moment my feelings toward genuine self-love, more universal truth, an increasingly invincible relationship with the Divine and self, and an unconditional appreciation for all that is…was consistently increasing at such a drastically quick rate that before I knew it I was at the center of a quadruple crufluffle about not having my last real name associated at all…here’s why I felt such inner turmoil about that:
The word about Lo Mar’s Art spread far beyond the art world.
The passion I felt toward my calling…toward the crystal clear vision I received for my life, took my breath away in magnitude and certainty, so there was no denying that this wasn't meant to be just a little side hustle, but a true career...an expression of self. (I was feeling the pride for self).
I was truly loving all the content I was creating and deeply knew the value of my words and creations…and deeply cherished the benefit they all were providing me with at their personal time of resonance that I no longer wanted to remain in my 100% anonymous & temporary safety bubble because as I continued to love who I was and who I was becoming more and more…there was no denying that shining my bright light proudly and authentically felt so exhilarating…plus I love my last name. Soooooo long story short, I still felt a strong and beautiful resonance with my alias Lo Mar and loved the ease and general feeling nature of Lo Mar’s Art…but I strongly felt like something was missing and I just didn't know what that was yet (basically, I was feeling pride for ancestry & self again).
And lastly, at what felt like the same time as the points above, I was repeatedly no longer resonating with the overall vibrations of the immense amount of content and creations that I was creating and loving. I quickly & highly started disliking and evolving away from them as my internal garden of love continued to transform…allowing many of my illusionary perspectives and insecurities fade away drastically. All while also triggering the lingering fears of misrepresenting who I truly am by sharing content I no longer fully resonate with and putting myself at greater risk of being misunderstood or rejected by others. Which led to the divinely timed hoarding of lots and lots of content and creations while I continued to devotedly tend to and nourish my internal garden of self-love and knowing that the security I desired was/is within too (basically, I was feeling fear, insecure, & caring wayyyy too much about other’s thought about me over what I thought about me).
So even though my perspectives about self and life were continuing to shift to new and higher perspectives that truly resonated more and more with the core of my being…and the diverse piles of created content - that at their perfect time no longer resonated with me - I knew I was still meant to release and share those seeds for anywhere who stumbled upon them because they were valuable to my past self and I wouldn't be the wonder that I am now without those perspectives so I began to truly trust that if I was led to share something I no longer resonated with in the present moment of sharing…that was ok because I know who I am and let’s be blunt…that’s all that matters.
SOoooooo ALLLLL of those aspects and thoughts (some aligned and some not) were pulling on me at once-ish BUT soon after that inner acknowledgement and work thought, anddddd BECAUSE OF MY DESIRE AND WILLLINGNESS TO FEEL GOOD AND my trust in the Divine, I decided to add “by Lo Metoyer” to the business name Lo Mar’s Art. And that decision was the greatest relief for me at that time and one I am so very proud of. It was a big step for me for me to be seen more clearly by others…I look forward to sharing more about that importance at a later date.
Soo yeah that is all.